Tuesday, August 20, 2013

Welcome to the other side

This is the part where you feel like you are exactly where you need to be, doing exactly what you need to be doing, exactly where you need to be doing it. Contentment is a stranger when you're so used to going to bed with restlessness and dreams on dreams on unlikely dreams. There is no "If I was there... ", "If I did this...", "if only...." because the great perhaps has come to fruition and you are living out all of the two toned hypotheticals that kept you sane and staring out the window when other people's expectations were calling your name. You've come to it. Welcome to the other side.
How else can I explain now but with this poem?

So Much Happiness
It is difficult to know what to do with so much happiness.
With sadness there is something to rub against,
a wound to tend with lotion and cloth.
When the world falls in around you, you have pieces to pick up,
something to hold in your hands, like ticket stubs or change.
But happiness floats.
It doesn't need you to hold it down.
It doesn't need anything.
Happiness lands on the roof of the next house, singing,
and disappears when it wants to.
You are happy either way.
Even the fact that you once lived in a peaceful tree house
and now live over a quarry of noise and dust
cannot make you unhappy.
Everything has a life of its own,
it too could wake up filled with possibilities
of coffee cake and ripe peaches,
and love even the floor which needs to be swept,
the soiled linens and scratched records…..
Since there is no place large enough
to contain so much happiness,
you shrug, you raise your hands, and it flows out of you
into everything you touch. You are not responsible.
You take no credit, as the night sky takes no credit
for the moon, but continues to hold it, and share it,
and in that way, be known. 

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